Incredibly Numb

Since I returned from Florida this past October, after the passing of...
I felt hollow inside, like a soulless being without a purpose.  I longed to feel something, anything, even the stinging pain of sorrow, just not this cold emptiness.
In the distance, I knew the birth of my niece would soon be that fulfillment. I sought to fill that void where my heart used to be.
Until this event, ng I suffered, but as soon as I purchased my plane ticket in anticipation of welcoming this beautiful girl, my future niece, twas then reality struck, and I was filled with joy; now I smile with a sense of purpose.
I know soon I will have to mourn, crippled with the pain of loss, but until then, there will be her;

 Lena Dorina Finley.

~ J

Pre-tension

Sifting memories
     Great things have yet to become
          Nothing can break me

Into the darkness
     Light red as a blood moon rise
          Eye of the world spies

Eating at my soul
     Falling forever falling

~ J