Hello again!!
I see despite my mundane rumblings you have returned to my secluded oasis on the web.
I am glad to see you again, I am overwhelmed with honor.
I would like to tell you about my week, but first I want to let you know that no matter how yours went (good bad indifferent) you have made it to this point, smarter, stronger, wiser, and more intelligent than when you started your journey on Monday.
I will start my journey through the third week of October on Sunday.
I have come to accept this day as my day of reflection. Here I use the time to evaluate my accomplishments and my failures of the previous week and use it to create a better J for the one to follow.
This past Sunday was an exceptional day of flaw finding. Do not get me wrong I never end my weeks with regrets. Dwelling on the past only consumes the time of possible accomplishments of the future.
I am glad that I am able to find the areas where I need improvement, there was a time I deluded myself in a blanket of pretention blinded by the feeling that I was always right and everyone else…
Well you get the idea.
So you see, I now can see past my ego and learn from errors both small and large.
With that I embraced Monday as a day of new beginnings
(rather than the illusion of autonomous desolation we adapted over the generations of dread)
Instead of blinding ourselves to a mundane daily grind. We need to open our eyes to a new realm of possibilities each Monday has in store for us.
When I started this letter I had the intentions of spilling the gossips of work life. Instead I will tell you about the three conversations I had with three very different people this week.
An acquaintance, a stranger, and my Uncle
On Tuesday I ran into an old co-worker I knew back in my days as a telemarketer.
Then we were slaves to our work week and used our weekends to complain about work.
Today we found ourselves at the opposite ends of life changing experiences.
I learned that she has been through two deaths this past year alone; of loved ones that were real close.
Her sister and a close friend from grade school that she kept in touch with over four decades.
I was saddened by her ordeal and felt compelled to sit with her longer that the obligatory “hey how is the weather, see you around….”
We spoke for a bit and with a loss of that magnitude I knew there was healing to come. However I learned that despite their lives cut too short, she walked away with something from each of them. And instead of falling into a pit of self-pity, she is using this experience to make her stronger. And the knowledge that her close friend and close sibling will live on in the hearts of their children and their values and teachings will be passed on generations to come.
Wednesday, before I continue with this adventure, I need to add that Wednesdays is the day I have a standing dinner with my uncle, earlier we mutually agreed this will take place on Thursday.
On Wednesday I found myself in an interesting predicament. I was at odds with a few decisions and my road did not just fork but veered off into several different directions. Depending on a path I took I would either hurt myself in the long run, or hurt people that are close to me.
However an unknown was placed into my path. I exchanged words with a person I did not know in a misunderstanding that never should have taken place; but it did. This stranger said some things that hauntingly hit close to home.
(Sorry that I am being obscure, I want to get this down without giving out details, its not about what took place but what I walked away with in the end.)
To get to the point the short conversation I had with this stranger actually put things into perspective for me and where I thought was a fork in the road was actually a winding path, albeit difficult, I was able to make it through without any doubts.
Thursday was a bit more personal. It was my time with whom I consider a mentor. I learned something about my uncle, his words are wise, and I am proud of how far he has come in the past 22 years.
Well if you made it this far into my ramblings, than you are a better person than I.
Enjoy your weekend.
Do not let the trivialities of your week interfere with your enjoyment, remember the past is not paying you rent so do not let it occupy your mind ;-).
Thank you
Your close friend
~ J
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