Eighteen years, Two months, Twenty-four days...

...ago, I weighed 300. I was confronted with a tough question and went through with a major weight loss, and within a year, I lost close to 100 hundred pounds,

But close to the 100th pound, I wavered and fell into oblivion.

Four years, Eight months, and Eight days...

...ago, I weighed myself and topped off at close to 425 pounds.

It was New Year's Eve of 2008, and I made a vow to lose 100 pounds by the following recent years.

That year I met a girl, fell in love when on adventures, lost the girl to another man, and hit my goal by the end of the year.

I continued to lose at least 25 more pounds by March, but three major life-changing events caused me to stumble badly.

The third of which was moving out here to Arizona.

One year, Six Months, and Thirty Days ...

...ago, I weighed myself and came in at 400 pounds even, realizing I went back too many steps, again, in too short of a time.

So I tried again; I tried hard but could not keep at it.

Four Months and Thirty Days...

...ago I tried again, with some help from a friend.

These past four months, I loved and lost again; I struggled and fell hard a couple of times and finally realized that I had an eating disorder.

I have lost 53 pounds so far, and right now, I am fighting hard to keep it off; I am fighting hard to keep losing.

I wish I could laugh in the mirror again, I wish I had adventures with that special person waiting for me again, and I wish I had a friend by my side to encourage me as I encourage them...

But this time, I need to learn to do it independently.

At this point, the only option I have is either I lose 100 more pounds by this time next year, or I am dead.

God grants me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.