14 Days 22 Hours 34 Minutes

...ago, I started my abstinence counter, a counter to my complete abstinence without compromise.

I am not sure what the future holds for me

I know only now; I look down at a count up from the day I started this journey, 14 days, 22 hours, and 36 minutes ago.

Saying goodbye to the things that I love, things that I tended to before those I love.

How is it that such inanimate objects have such control over me?

14 days 22 hours, and 38 minutes ago

I see that number and count the days with an excruciating effort.

I pray to my higher power to accept things I cannot change, to help me change what I can, and for wisdom to understand the difference between them.

14 Days 22 Hours, and 39 minutes

I look at that number and realize, damn, I type slowly.