I feel him dances outside my field of vision I turn to see him chase away
An attempt at pursuit is a tempting delight
To give in is something of a fright
He laughs and judges testing my moral
Hoping I will give in to his fracked up quarrel
Asking questions wastes precious times eats away
At my life at my dreams at the length of my day
To distract I seek someone to rescue
Only I am the fool who needs a savior
Scared away by a past long forgotten and forgiven
Grasping a future so thickly made of smoke
Falling from a present wearing a past like a cloak
My demons prey on a victim so weak
I feel him dancing outside my field of vision when I turn to seek him
He dances away pointing and laughing
He haunts me as I attempt to move on in a new world new way
But his condescending glare just keeps appearing
blocking my future
distorting my present
tempting me to give in to his self pity
judging a character I chosen to wear
Is it me or am I still him dancing away
pointing and laughing and judging the man who has become the man of today
I need to know if my efforts were not in vain
I can still see him dancing
Just outside a field of vision
Wondering if anyone else share this fate
Do they know the man who dances
Pointing and laughing and judging my morals
Was the man I was
And the man I hope not to become
He dances and points and runs away
As I turn my head to catch a fleeting glimpse of a possible future
From an improbable past
Can I truly be forgiven of deeds he has committed
The one who dances
The one who points
The one who runs away laughing and judging
As I turn to greet him
I am confronted with
Myself
~ J
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