Do not believe Google maps

The map below my blog keeps posting that I am somewhere that I am not.

It posts places I will be in two days to three weeks.

Do not believe it, google is deceiving you.

It wants you to go to the places I am not, so you will be forced to buy their sponsors products.

Do not be fooled, because I am most likely right behind you.

~ J

This was my Monday, I fear Tuesday

The countdown to Christmas is now tickling our noses.

Turkey day is no longer around the corner but two doors away and the aroma of feast day fills our senses.

Crossed Monday off my calendar, now I will be bummed out for six days until Monday returns again :)

At least I have this Thursday to look forward to, breaking up the chaoticness of a mundane week.

Why do we give such a dark name to the day after Turkey Day?

From now on I will refer to the end of this week as Green Friday!

You cannot stop me.

You will have to catch me first.

I am thankful for my family.

I am thankful for my friend.

I am thankful for my health.

I am thankful for my reader.

I am thankful for the Elders of the Internet, for giving me a tiny corner to post my inner thoughts.

and most of all I am thankful for YOU!

~ J

I am posting something to my blog, I do not know why but its not my log, I am trying hard not to mispell, I am sending this from my cell ~ J

deeper Meanings dissolving Chaotic thoughts

roaming a world I create
enveloped by its sweet aromas
having left behind burdens
early morning songs

venturing into an unknown
    over hills of swaying grass
light breezes taunt my face
    into a sunrise of golden majesty

hues of richly deep colors
    circle a horizon of majestic mountains
under a sea of crystal waters
    moving a soul no longer bound

world of simplistically complicated possibilities
    outcasts gathering to witness
how glorious this world can become
    yesterday no longer existing

a time long forgotten
    sowing a garden ripe with fruit
tomorrow a distant country yet discovered
    only a time can speak of said stories

night lady pulls a blanket of darkness
    nestling her children in her sweet embrace
anther day tucked into memories
    calling of a night bird singing them to sleep

i listen to her song as my eyes weigh me into

~ J

What is it they need me to find?

elaborate dreams
    lights a deeply evening sky
        i search for purpose

must I continue
    seeking what cannot be found
        remember a loss

eternity waits
    here my journey begins new
        standing at end worlds

innocent delight
    touches my wandering soul
        imagination

~ J

(thi sis myh aik u)

Ever wonder what it would be like running off to explore the world

~ J

there are too many variables that make up life, many scientists and theologians have yet to solve this equation ~ J

I hope my friend is having an amazing birthday :-) ~ J

It became dark outside real fast ~ J

I am

~ J

Taking the long day home

I figured out why my Mondays, Tuesdays, and Wednesdays always feel like Thursdays and Fridays.

The days seem to drag on (not in the negative connotation of the phrase "drag on" but in the sense that each day appear longer)

So by the end of the day the previous day seems to be two days away.

So there fore each afternoon I am under the impression that it is either Thursday or Friday, and for some reason on Friday's I wonder why it is not Saturday or Sunday?

In a previous post I speculated that the universe is expanding exponentially, so therefore scientists theorize that time is given the illusion of moving much faster.

However I believe if the universe is actually expanding, time is actually being stretched making the days appear to be longer.

So I did a few calculations and came up with this hypotheses:

Each day is in fact the value of 53 hours, 37 minutes, 45 seconds, and 2.85 milliseconds.

Some people may argue the fact, but I believe only a select few is more aware to the changes of the universe than others.

I have not come this far only to be turned away

I reached the crossroads only to find my options were limited to complicated questions.

When I asked my higher power for the answer his response was "Two Hundred and Twenty Two"

So I now need to find out what the ultimate question was.

I decided to take 3 short cuts only to be stopped by the Karma Police

Apparently I ignored the yield sign and did not allow the baby monkeys the right of way.

If I had to do it again I would have given the monkies a ride.

My car had enough gas for the next 112 miles, but not enough gas to make it another 23.

So I went back to my house to do to pick up another 59 cents.

It took me nomore than 5 minutes and no less then 20.

My problem was not in the math but in the fact that the physics could not uphold the law.

Frieday

Good evening my friend :)

Well this turned out to be a roller coaster week, full of ups and downs, but no matter where it was it continued to spin around.

My journey through the first week of November was certainly an adventurous one. I wish you could have experienced it with me, although I am sure you had an adventure of your own.......?

Last night I crashed.

I skipped my evening work out not from laziness but shear exhaustion.

However I picked it up this morning.

After that I had my oatmeal and bananna for breakfast.

Then headed for work.

The weather was magnificent.

I never felt more alive today :)

and for the first time in three weeks I was not plagued by fatigue!!!

I listened to Christmas songs while I did my work in the morning.

Completed several tasks throughout the campus.

and enjoyed my day...

...up until the phone call.

I had a conversation with someone that left me in a bad state, and no matter how much I tried it my mind went south.

Now once again I am exhausted.

Yesterday I skipped my daily blog (although there is no official time I make my post).

Thursday morning I finally got around to getting my blood work done, you see a week ago I had a doctor's app

Since the second week of October I have been suffering from extreme fatigue, the doctor was not too happy with the results so he wants to arranged tests after my blood work results come in.

I kinda sorta kept this a secret, only told some people a little info, not how serious it was.

but now I am too tired, and after a phone call with someone close to me I feel like I was put through the ringer.

But no worried my friends, there is still fight left in me :D

I just need some R&R this weekend along with some meditation and I will be right as rain once again.

I just wanted to check in to see if you enjoyed my gift of Thursday?

and to let you know to share the weekend with the world.

There are so many amazing things out there my friends.

and I have homework for you.

Yes the "catch" to my gift to you of Wednesday and Thursday.

I want you to list ten new things you experienced this weekend.

It can be small things or Great things, just as long as they are new things.

New to you that is.

This list is for you.

You can share it with me if you want.

You will be amazed how many new things you can experience in the course of two days just by keeping your eyes open.

Now do not look too hard.

Most of it will be right in front of you.

Once again I appreciate your company :)

Thank you for stopping by.

Sleep well.

Pleasant dreams.

Your great friend,
~ J

wed......nes.......day

Hello my friends :)

I am glad to see you are back.

Did you enjoy my gift to you?

Ah, it was a splendid day, Wednesday, rolls off your tongue.

Well guess what I have great news for you.

I can only do this one last time so take this gift and spend it frivolously

Thursday is your day.

Yes I said it and you have it, I am giving you Thursday!!!!!

Tomorrow is all yours, seize it my friend.

Forget about today, its over.

Tomorrow is yours, I cannot wait to hear how you lived it :)

Sleep well my friends

........and remember tomorrow is all yours

Your friend,
~ J

cracked candlestick holders, melted gnomes

This is my 19th evening straight of my workouts, I have been working out before three to five times a week, but this is the 19th day in a row since I started my next level in self improvement.

It took years of planning, cultivating, and money to sculpt myself to the 420lb obese blob you've met in 2008, so I cannot expect my results to be that evident in a mere month.

It is just so easy to stray.

The temptation at times can be too great.

The burden greater.

but when I see myself in the mirror

when I see myself through other peoples eyes

I know what I need to do

even if today is my last day

at least I know I left this life fighting.

A person often meets his destiny on the road he took to avoid it. ~Jean de La Fontaine

TGINF (Thank God Its Not Friday)

Greetings Friends :)

So we made it through Tuesday, overcoming old challenges, tripping over new ones

Your journey through the first week of November is proving to be quite an interesting one

and for those of you who think otherwise need to pay more attention

there are things in the works

people around you teaming with ideas

all ready to burst out with a simple smile or mundane hello

But not to worry my friends, if today did not do it for you, guess what I have another day just for you

That is right I am giving you "Wednesday"

tomorrow is your day and only yours

take confidently and use It wisely

no strings attached

and I expect nothing in return

Wednesday is your day my friend

I shall step aside and allow you to do with it as you please

all I ask is

please do not waste my gift to you

so go on

grab it

Wednesday is all yours

Thank you for stopping by

enjoy the remaining hours of your Tuesday

count down to your very own day

Sweet dreams

Your dear friend,
~ J

eventful days leads to eventless nights

I wonder about my discipline

or lack of it

I sat on my couch watching the television wrestling with the idea of putting off this evenings exercises

and again I found myself on my bench pushing harder and harder

harder than the night before

with no regrets of the strains on my muscles

now hunched over my computer desk pounding away on my blog with my mind floating endlessly into an abyss

I am doing things right

being a good person

eating right

exercising more and more on a daily basis

then why am I feeling worst

I should be feeling better

more energy

what am I doing wrong

has the demons from my past finally caught up with me?

or is Karma kicking my ass for past deeds.

or am i kicking my own?

i can see the difference

my clothes hang off my body like a rodeo clown

then why do I not feel it

eh, what are you gonna do?

"Four days will quickly steep themselves in night;
Four nights will quickly dream away the time;
And then the moon, like to a silver bow
New-bent in heaven, shall behold the night
Of our solemnities. "~Shakespeare

Forever together, eternally apart

She dances away with a lighted beauty and grace
as the earth admires her from afar
she captures the light of a sun
reflecting it on her planet below
basking earth in her midnight bliss

she tugs at his waters - affecting his tides
he accepts her magnificent
glory from an opposite pole
as they dance a silent tango

two very different heavenly bodies
forever entwined - eternally apart
perfection in pair - forever a match

without her radiance no life can survive
Without his gravity she will be lost

Phase after phase he reaches for her grace
she spins away lighting a path
in cold vacuum of space
with a simple smile of illumination

Forever together, eternally apart

~ J

The greater your capacity to love, the greater your capacity to feel the pain

Life hangs upon me, and becomes a burden;
I am ten times undone, while hope, and fear,
And grief, and rage and love rise up at once,
And with variety of pain distract me.
~Joseph Addison

Yes this was Monday and I am J

I....






...dont know

Thank you Joan Fabrica <-J>

Grandmother Nature Beat the Snot out of me

Greetings Friends :)

Yes it is sad the weekend has concluded, but BE HAPPY tomorrow is the beginning of a new week.

New day, new experiences new possibilities!!!!

I trust you enjoyed your weekend?

And do not worry about it if you used this time to complain about work, there is another weekend of free thought after the next interesting five days.

Today my travels took me to Naples, soaking in Grandmother Nature in its fullest.

She provided us with a pristine blue sky, a bright glorious sun (not to hot, not to cold), and a magnificent ocean.

I did not intend to get into the waters, but the second my feet hit the sand I found myself meeting the powerful waves with the full force of a mack truck.

Then I realized I needed to change into my bathing suit and tuck away my phones and wallet.

The ocean licked me, and I enjoyed every last punch she had to offer.

I am still coughing up salt water, and picking sand out of areas of my body.

...and I had the honor to experience this with a close and dear friend.

I wish all of you could have been there...

...but there is always a next time.

So yes take the time to bask in the beauty Grandmother Nature has to offer, and let the forces of Mother Ocean wash away your worries, fears, anxieties....

Thank you for stopping by.

Enjoy the remainder of the evening.

Sweet dreams.

Good night.

Your good friend,
~ J

The only cure for paranoia is to be here just as you are..... <-J>