W5: D31; No J, No Peace. Know J, Know Peace

There is one are of my life that I know very well I need to work on, this is my ego.


As I strip away the layers of my personality, something one does in the area of recovery, I come across my defect of character is that I can be a bit self absorbed, egotistical, and self-centered.


Sure I joke as this being my "good" qualities, but in the grand scheme of things this is actually an area I need to work on.


Once I realize my place in this universe is not at the center, then I can finnaly humble myself to my disease (addiction).  


I am J, and I am at day 31 of my new 2010 journey, so far I kept at my below 1000 calorie goal.  I am not seeing the results, yet, but this will not hinder me.  I will be strong, I will remain vigilant.  I will stay away from Dunkin Donuts.


I am not perfect.  I am not flawless.


I am Human, I am J.


Thank you
~ J


Epilogue:  certain pieces to my puzzle are falling into place and the larger picture is slowly beginning to reveal itself.  I may not see this in its entirety, I may not know what the outcome may be, but I understand.