My path is one of inner peace and self enlightenment.
As I journey toward self awareness I begin to see the flaws in the world around me which that much more clarity.
Do not get me wrong, I am far from perfect, nor will I ever achieve perfection. I only seek a fraction of enlightenment.
My understanding of the world around me comes into a focus, not an absolute, but a small percentage; more than I was yesterday or yesteryear.
With this comes the burden of responsibility called 'acceptance'
I must learn to accept the more inhumane qualities of humanity or else I am in danger of becoming sucked into despair and possibly resentment to those who continue to practice deceit and harm to their neighbors.
As I force myself to become a kinder and more understanding man, I am sadden by the negativity my own family exudes.
Knowing I cannot change the world and only accept it for what it is, is one thing; However
Watching my family travel down the path of self destruction is one of the most difficult parts of my own journey.
For attempting to show them the peace I seek only ends up dragging me into their despair and self pity.
With family this pull is much stronger and the loss of my humanity is greater in the end.
If I cannot help them by pleading to them to change, then I must do the most difficult thing of all.
I need to separate myself from them in order to continue down my path and only hope to lead by example.
I am not perfect.
I am far from inner peace.
Farther still from enlightenment.
But I am J.
No matter what obstacles are thrown into my path.
What burdens I am forced to carry.
I am J and nothing, no one, can change this.
~ J
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