W3: D17; …that our lives had become unmanageable

"---that our lives had become unmanageable"


The second half of the first step.


In my case I have become so consumed by food and eating that my life has turned into an upside down disaster.


At this point I all my activities would revolve around eating.


When I went on a business trip, I would plan out all the restaurants, and fantasize what I would eat for dinner, desserts.


Outings, tempted by the prospect of eating.


Holidays, well you know, the meaning of Christmas and Thanksgiving was food food food, and the days surrounding those would consist of easy accessible treats galore.


It has become too much, I was no longer consuming food, food was consuming me.


Again this second half of the first step is an application to any sort of addiction, not just Alcohol and food, but the others I have mentioned in my previous post.


"We admitted we were powerless over our addiction - that our lives had become unmanageable"


I am J, I am human, I am flawed, but I am still J


Thank you


~ J


Epilogue:

Book of  J, Chapter 1:

1 I am on a journey
it is a journey of choice
the path I chose
is by far not an easy one
2 although there are
times of great joy
many obstacles still
plague my way
3 These obstacles
can be harsh
it is not the degree
of difficulty they pose
but the manner of
how I handle each one
4 On my journey I will
meet great people
some will fade in
then out of my path,
others may last till the end
5 I cannot choose
the latter or the former
I can only accept the
inevitability of the two
6 Some of these people
will have a positive outcome
on my journey
others will be
downright negative
7 Whether positive
or negative
I will not ignore
but learn from
8 so I may grow
become wiser
for the next leg
of my path.